Prosperity Unlimited

Willingness to Accept, Desire to Understand and Ability to Let Go

prosperitymuse — Mon, 30 Nov 2009 21:28:14 +0000

What do we live for and what do we imagine that we would die for? I always forget to remember those that are so close to me, yet so far in distance. And perhaps, this is why I forget to remember them. It’s not that I am self-centered that I forget to remember them, it is that I get caught up in my own world, as do we all.

This last week in planning for this last weekend has taught me a quickly learned lesson, yet a forever growing lecture of life.

It is sad to think that it takes something so profound as a death in our networks, our friendships or our families for us to…..wake up. Providentially, we are not experiencing the “oh no, it is too late,” time period; Yet, we are experiencing the approaching vincity of an end to an era.

Death is something that is hard for most of us to speak about, yet for some of us, we are open to what it is and what it brings, and find a way to….accept it. Watching one come into not an understanding, but yet an acceptance of it, can be….hard.

We all spent time together this past Sunday, and hopefully we will be spending many more times together, but when a distant family member says “we may be putting this time up on the shelf, if you know what I mean,” you sit back and think about it as perhaps a truth.

I hope we all may accept this chapter of life, as we watch he, who is coming into an acceptance of the approaching end.

Remember Me When I’m Young

prosperitymuse — Fri, 27 Nov 2009 22:03:37 +0000

What happened within one year that makes one normally ardent upon photographing every moment possible, to make it where no photography at all is captured?! I can always be found with my camera in hand, always; especially at the holidays. Yet, this year….

I was in the kitchen, watching my grandfather cook, as I thought about it I heard the “good-sense, no sense” fairy speak in my head, (you don’t have that fairy?!, sure you do…) and it struck me…we all got fat. Hips widened, butts broadened, and everywhere in between, we all gained. The ones that do work out and the ones that do not, we all kept…well, everything and gained further more!

I am not ungrateful for my family, that’s not it. I just…can only take so much family and so much of family together…for about one hour tops. I stocked us all up on photography last year. I am very grateful, actually. I know that I am due to one person being absent this year, and it made all the difference to me.

Last year, silliness unto no degree found us, this year…ha, boredom found us. So, usually my photos can tell a story, but this year, there is no story to be told.

Just the messgage of that-please remember me when I am young. I care not for photos of myself gaining weight, please remember me as I am thin, and sprung as a young thing.

Don’t Want to Lose

prosperitymuse — Mon, 23 Nov 2009 22:31:45 +0000

I have heard that I will miss you when “you’re gone,”
I have heard that I will miss you when “I am gone,”
You’re here-
and I can’t-
LOVE you.
You are here now
and you can’t-
LOVE me.

I do not want to lose what closeness is between us-
but I feel that I already have.
I feel when I go-
you WILL miss me-
but you will have came too late.
You will have been too late upon responding to my heart-

Why can’t you see-

I am BEGGING for your love, but you don’t see it.
I am PLEADING for your support-
but you are both too blinded by the
PAIN
FRUSTRATION
ANGER
you have with one another.

I can’t stay here,
I KNOW my calling is in a place I desire not to be in,
but I know my faith is calling me there,
but you won’t understand.

I don’t want to lose our relationships,
but I don’t want to lose (what is left of) our relationships.

I don’t want to not love you anymore.

Mother Said

prosperitymuse — Sun, 22 Nov 2009 00:12:43 +0000

My mother told me just the other day-
“Listen to your inner spirit”

How many times this sentance has been said, but how many fewer times it has been heard. I agree, finally once, I agree with my mother (haha).

I know my spirit tells me to go there- (why?) beats me, but I trust Him, and myself, and my prosperity.

Uproot

prosperitymuse — Sat, 21 Nov 2009 23:25:39 +0000

My two closest friends are both gone- one is fighting a war in Iraq and one is teaching English in Seoul, South Korea. I am without anyone here whom I closely trust enough to share my deepest thoughts and my heart with. So I feel that God may be bringing me to a test upon this lesson. I don’t trust easily and I don’t waste time letting in those that I know are not on the same spiritual plane. I don’t mean religion when I say spiritual, I mean actually that, spiritual, spirits.

So, this is a BIG reason for my desire to uproot. I am confident in where I am as a person and I know whatever I attempt in this life, I will succeed.

Earlier this week, I was told “quite honestly, you have no direction,” to which I responded with a stern “standing up” for myself. In one light, no, I do not have proper direction, in another, how off is that, I have a wicked direction that has never left me alone, that has never abonded me.

I know not why I seek moving, uprooting, but I do. I know not yet why I am being called to this particular location, but I know the one leading me, will not lead me wrong. I know if I help myself, I will be helped by He, who is greater.

With two besties gone, I feel that following their lead, is what I need as well. So fighting in Iraq is an inspiration and teaching English in Seoul is an inspiration as well. I will conquer my world as well. I am thankful for the one(s) leading me in my UPROOT.

Man on a Mission

prosperitymuse — Mon, 19 Oct 2009 00:11:11 +0000

I heard you speak these words not so long as a little over a year ago.
Where are you now?
Where is that passionate soul I knew?
Where is that livid spirit that sang a heartfelt song?
Where is that Man on a Mission?

Did he fall behind, like other fallen creative spirits?
Where is he, did he give up and give in?
It is far easier to give up and throw it all in-
yeah, that’s what you should do-
give up on that dream.

Man on a Mission-
Where is he now?
Gone, and lost as every other man on a mission-

It’s only a mindstate anyway, success…

Closer Distance

prosperitymuse — Fri, 25 Sep 2009 01:20:28 +0000

As little as a year ago I would not had thought that I could have a conversation with someone clear across the world as easily as being on the computer through video chat!

My best friend just moved to Seoul South Korea, just because she moved to the other side of the world, does not mean that we have to lose contact! We had a forty-five minute chat with video on SKYPE!. I don’t know how we would have done this without the cool technology now! Even as little as a year ago I didn’t think I would be able to keep in touch with others like this!

I’m truly grateful for SKYPE! and today’s technology that I can have this relationship still with such a close friend!

Cheers to a techy life!

Farewell

prosperitymuse — Thu, 10 Sep 2009 01:29:53 +0000

Letting someone go is hard. Letting them go when they aren’t really leaving is even harder. Today I had to say a “farewell” to the only person that has always been “there” in my life, my best friend Mandee.

Mandee and I met years ago in high school. We met through FCLA (Fellowship of Christian Athletes) about 2001. When we met, we were both very different from now’s time. And though we both have grown and in a way, grown in separate ways, we have always stayed faithful and true to the best friendship ever endured with the other. She’s an amazing blessing of an individual. I’m sad to see her leave, but happy to wish her a fareWELL.

It is indeed a fareWELL. Mandee is on her way to teach English to up to 6th graders in South Korea. I support her decision in anything she pursues and especially in this one. I know those whom will experience her as a person, a teacher, and a friend, will experience it well. While I am “losing” my best friend, the world is gaining a mad talented, compassionate heart.

Farewell my friend, I’ll see you in a year…if you don’t fall in love with the culture and never return home to the South!

My Own World

prosperitymuse — Mon, 07 Sep 2009 19:25:33 +0000

When I am with him, I am in my own world. I am not oblivious of the world amongst me, I am not unaware of others around me. No, it’s by choice that I am apart from this world. I am away from all worries, away from all stress, and am within a deep care for and an intense compassion for another whom (finally!) feels the same for me.

When with him, it’s a poem waiting to happen with each drawn breath. My time with him is a song waiting to be composed and a day well spent. Even if my day with him is unproductive, it’s a day well invested with time. Each spoken word is an angel whom is educated upon the act of compassion and religion of love.

With him is all my days of once-hoped-for love that has become a practiced-each day routine. Unlike other routines I’ve done in my life that I have become tired of, I know not this time, will that happen.

When I am with him it’s only he and I. When I am not with him, it’s only me and he’s still in my mind, in my heart, and always in my world.

Passionate Fool

prosperitymuse — Sat, 08 Aug 2009 05:40:38 +0000

Words can not describe the emotions I feel inside.
Too long for a time has it has been that I have felt-
frustration more than passion!
What gives? That’s my drive, passion!

I’ve no words to say to any of you that bring me to this-
BOIL! I’ve no words to say to a one of you that bring me
DOWN! I shall not listen, I heard none of what you spoke-
Could you not see- I am indeed a passionate fool, I’ve already left.